today is the 11th day of the new year, also the first day i've even thought about writing anything in weeks, maybe months. so in vain efforts of getting some flow going, i'm forcing myself to ramble here.
this may be a bit of a rant. . . so here's your warning to go somewhere like http://www.cuteoverload.com/ for some kewt puppy action instead.
rant 1: writer's block sucks. like, big time. today i emailed one of my editors and asked him to reassign some of my pieces. no matter how hard i try to sit down and focus. . . i can't. plus, not having a computer with iTunes really puts a damper on downloading new music to write said reviews. i'm disappointed in myself, yet relieved. it's pretty twisted.
rant 2: i sat in an airport or airplane for 90% of my day today. it was a shit ass snowy day, apparently all over the country. sitting on a tarmack for 2+ hours for a 1 hour flight after a 16 hour day is bad news. business trips ain't all they's cracked up to be, specially without the expensed mandatory booze on the plane.
rant 3: i can't sleep. or maybe, i can sleep, but can't stay asleep. or maybe it's just my dreams. but it's probably general anxiety. whatever it is, it sucks. i woke up every 30 minutes last night from the time i conked out around 11:30 until i had to roll outta bed at 5 this morning. it sucked. it's been progressively worse. i can't tell if it's because i'm watching too much lost and think that my life is too, some sort of twisted conspiracy theory, or if the external factors in my life are starting to twist a bit too much out of my control. maybe i'm just bored with my routine and this is my inner concscious's way of telling me to snap the fuck outta it and make some lifestyle changes. or maybe i really just need to start exercising and lay off the booze. or maybe. . . my life is a conspiracy theory and the paranoia is REAL LIFE? probably.
rant 4: well, i'm done bitching, really. like i said before, i'm trying to just get some sort of writing accomplished - even if it is unthought out garbage. i've got a couple shows in the bag for the upcoming weekend, (if i'm still alive after the workweek i've got ahead of me, yeesh), and hopefully those will help me knock some werdz out.
rant 5: george really needs to quit shout singing off-key in my kitchen. i'm tired and grumpy and ready to go shove a drumstick up his ass. like, now.
ok. well, this was hardly entertaining for anyone to read, but i think it's time for me to set some delayed new years resolutions, focusing on creating a less anxiety ridden environment. laying off the booze consumption. focusing on positive extracurricular activities in its place (ala chirp, maybe spending more time with my nephew & nieces). creating a healthy work/life balance. getting a little exercise. quit focusing on what i don't have (co-dependence), and instead appreciate what i do (baller status destiny's child independence).
ok, time to (try to) sleep. hopefully i'll have some music or kat newz soon.
kanye & jay-z dropped a single today, with a full collaborative album in the early spring pipeline. this is very good news, perhaps i'll write more later bout it bout it. . . .
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